My Life In His Hands

This is what I remember, I have been told that when terrible things happen to us we tend to block it all out, I waish that was the case for myself. Unfortunately I can remember my childhood as if it was yesterday, and not only can I remember I almost feel like it was was almost like a past life. I have never been able to talk about my past and you will see while reading my story that even when I did speak out I was never heard. After having my old children and realising that it is my life and I am now in control of my own life that I should finally tell my story. I found that once I started writing this book; I could just switch off the everything going on around me and I found it therapeutic it is good to get it out and talk about my childhood. A handful of people know the outline of my childhood, but the words in this book is the full story, or as least everything I remember in detail. I have realised writing at the time was my way of coping with the silence and pretence. If my book can help just one person, then I feel that my horrible childhood might have a purpose and not just be a punishment. I will say that have no regrets, what happened in my life has happened and can never be undone. I have tried to not go into too much detail when talking about the abuse scenes in order for my story to be easier to read. Abuse happens everywhere, and sometimes it is staring you straight in the face and you still might not see it but I now know that life can throw anything at me and I will get through it. I have no shame about my past as it has made me the person I am today’ ‘Everything happens for a reason and I truly believe that’ – Sarah Rosmond